STRESS!

So recently the weeks have crept up on me and I do not know where the time has gone! It's nearly Christmas and sometimes I still can not believe that I am at Uni. One of those moments where you are staring into space thinking, where the bloody hell has the time gone! I'm not complaining, it's just a lot to take in. I've been suffering from the amount of pressure, I know that EVERYTHING is due in on Friday and I know i'm behind. I don't have the mental strength to keep on going and I know if I do that i'll mess it up and is there any point! I just need to snuggle into bed with my big Simba cuddly toy and sleep for a week! If I crack on and do it, I probably could but one my PC really dislikes me at times and will not let 3DS Max work hence why I do it in the labs. I get nervous and frustrated from having the 3rd years watching what I do. I know i'm a first year and they clearly know more, but some people take critisim as an attack and others take it as guidence. I do take it as an attack but I am trying not to. But it is hard. I know there are a lot of people out there. But at the end of the day whatever grade we get from Chris, Mike and Heather it's to help us. I'll probably need a weekend to gather myself whether good or bad, but whatever happens I shall act upon it. I want this. I want this a lot. I want a gaming job. I want this degree. This is my life and I want it to be me. Hopefully things will become easier and I will think of this in a different way but for now I will do what I can without doing worse and I shall do it. Christmas is coming and I am going to work on whatever feedback then and before and after. The only annoying thing is, every time I play games, I think of them as objects of squares and circles and cylinders and the textures and seams and wshrshfauhdgfwjksodajgsh poo.. Annoying once you know these things you cant simple ignore them :( but hey! I'm going to hopefully be making games and let others enjoy the satisfaction I have of making them while they play them! YAY!

This is unfortunately true!