Reflection... (thinking face)

So after a stressful day my assessment has been and gone! I am quite happy with the results that I got! I wasn't expecting something fantastic as I knew I didn't do enough to get there! Because of illness it has held me back, but that won't mean I won't bring it back and get higher! Because I can not take feedback lightly, I make it seem as an attack, it was quite hard for me to come to terms with what Heather, Chris and Mike have said! I know it was formative and it was just to see where we are and how we can improve. This is good, since I like having feedback a lot. I don't want to do work where I think I’ve done well and all the feedback is negative. It really hurts me when that happens, and im sure that a lot of other people feel the same way! Getting negative feedback isn't nice, and something I don't aim for, but I'm glad that I've had it now before it's too late! At the end of the day it's helping me to improve and that is what I am going to do! No point in moping around all day and do nothing about the feedback given!

So let's have some self reflection on what feedback I have been given. So with Game Production (Heather). I understand everything she has said about my feedback. I know that when I made my building I hadn't done it properly. My mesh for my building was extremely messy and poorly done! If I knew this earlier on I would have actually changed it. But because my mesh was so badly done and I had only found that out the week it was due in I felt like I had to keep going. I knew my texture maps were also pretty awful since all I had to do was just pile things on top of each other. Because of the poorly done building mesh I found it very hard to have a neat map and thus a sloppy texture map was made. In the end the textures weren’t bad. They could have been better by far! I know exactly where I went wrong and I am so grateful that Heather has given me till the 7^th Jan to get it sorted! I am planning on doing a new building, one that I am more familiar with! I am glad that I have taken this building as practice and now I can go away over Christmas and do a proper building that will have a clean mesh, detailed texture, good use of map space and one that is of a good standard. I also know what she meant by my folders. I am a very folder person and everything has to be in it's only little specific folder! I do this a lot and I’ve lost things because I have had folder within folder of work, Some of it is the same and copies of the same thing but I do not realize! This time everything will be clearly labelled so I can find them and so can Heather! At least I will remind myself to actually name EVERYTHING! Cause yeah... I do lose it!

So with Chris now! Visual Production! From doing a traditional art background at A-Level having a pencil in my hand is basically 2^nd nature! Although I hadn't done Art at GCSE I was never gonna let it stop me from doing what I wanted to do! Since being at Uni doing Visual work has become slightly more difficult! From seeing other peoples work I have realized how many styles there are! Sometimes I try to inspire to be like others, but maybe that's not the way! I am just finding it very hard to find who I am and my style! But I am very picky about detail and when it's enjoyable I love sketching and rendering detail! I enjoy more organic forms such as the dinosaur bones and that’s where my shading improves! I enjoy these things because they feel more natural! I struggle with the technical side even though I understand. I just can not apply my knowledge to a piece of paper! I am going to have to work on that now! Well when I go back at Christmas I will print out photos and examine their horizon line and truly look well into the picture! Within the canal study as an example it's all got to do with perspective and the horizon line and vanishing point! All of these technical things are quite scary to me! For the picture to look right, you have to get those 3 things right! To get those 3 things right you've pretty much got your picture. I know that in my final piece the horizon line is a little bit too high and that the focal point of the picture isn't to the middle, it's too much to the right! Which is quite annoying since I really felt like did well on that sketch. But I knew it when I had finished it and by that time it was all too late! But at least now I can take feedback like that and apply it over the Christmas holiday to broaden my skills within Visual Production!

On with Mike! So what can I say! Erm... well you wanted me to reflect and thus I shall do so! Hence this blog! But overall within my work I felt okay with it! I've learnt a lot within 8 weeks of being at Uni and it has put a lot of pressure on my emotionally and mentally! But I know in the end it's going to be worth it! Illness will not stop me until I am dead. I will keep going until it is right! But with a Good in Visual and Critical and an Adequate in Game I know that is a pass and that I know where I’ve gone wrong! The only way is forward and that's what I shall do! I have taken this feedback as something that is good and not bad! I know what to do, I know how to manage my time more and I know that I want this too much that nothing on this earth can match or satisfy the craving to excel and get better within this course! Hopefully I can keep making funny blogs for Mike, but then again, some people have said that you told them, they were funny!? So what is it Mike, hey, hey! Me or them!....... hey?! I joke, I joke! But in all honesty what you read, is what I think. Want a personal story of my life while going through Uni! Well here it is!